I wish I can write as if I cook. Like I choose fresh ingredients, wash them in clean water, get them prepared for the food, put suitable spices at proper timing, and cook them properly. It's so natural for me to do things like that when I cook. However, when it comes to writing, I get nervous and have to think hard. It takes a long time until I put a period at the end of each sentence. Even after the period, I cannot go on. I read and re-write it several times.
Recently, I've been in doubt if I can go on like this. I felt like I was being eaten alive by writing. This doubt blinded my objective perspective. I was drowning in the depressed emotion, and my daily life was getting lagged.
On one of those days, my husband wrote a short post on Reddit about making kimchi. We got surprised by an unexpectedly huge amount of response and interest from people. My blog has gained many subscribers. I couldn't believe the statistics I was seeing. Realizing what was going on, it hit me in the back of my head. I had to think about the direction from now on. I had to figure out where this doubt comes from and what it is about.
I followed the trail of my emotion. The path was actually simple, and the start point was close. Writing is the only way for me to explain some food to someone who has never tasted it before. I'm used to cooking, not writing. So writing is harder than cooking. Then I shouldn't worry too much. I should write more, put myself into the troubles, and let myself make mistakes. Of course, with joy and thankfulness to those who take time and mind to read my stories.